I Keep Doing This Wrong

I swear, I keep doing this speaking thing wrong.

ONCE AGAIN (how many times am I going to do this?) I miss where all the speakers are sitting, and I sit off by myself.

ONCE AGAIN (how many times am I going to do this?) I miss the opportunity to bond over butterflies and nerves and nausea as we wait for our speaking slot.

ONCE AGAIN (how many times am I going to do this?) I miss the chance to relax into the understanding of other speakers post-talk.

I keep doing this and it keeps frustrating me.

My biggest goof was Webstock 2012, no one told me there was an entire cordoned off section for speakers where the group of them all bonded. I sat in the second level balcony alone, in tears because I had no feedback about my talk, I didn't know if I had done even remotely okay.

My latest goof was today.

Upside, the other speakers helped me recover. They came up to talk with me after my FIRST EVER KEYNOTE. SQUEEEEE!