We should stop expecting people to be anything other than very flawed. Whoever we get to know will be radically imperfect in many ways. There can only ever e 'good enough' relationships with others.

Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure... than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.

Theodore Roosevelt

We shall sub-title this, "AMS is a bitch of a bitch."

The question is not, "Will I succeed?" but rather, "What should I attempt?"

Well, let me tell you about what I'm attempting...

Watched the Obi Wan Kenobi saga on Disney Plus earlier, S1:E3 Part III most recently. It had a scene in it where the dialog went something like,

Obi Wan: "What have you become?"
Vader: "I have become what you have made me."

To which I thought, "You narcissistic asshole. You had choices. You made your choices. F'ing own your choices instead of blaming other people for your shitty life choices, you f--k."

And when the smoke cleared from the mask, I saw my own face.

From Albert Camus, to René Char,

“The older I get, the more I find that you can only live with beings who liberate you, and who love you with an affection that is as light to bear as it is strong to feel… This is how I am your friend, I love your happiness, your freedom, your adventure…and I would like to be for you the companion you are sure of, always.”